Silvuh

_{Original post, May 29, 2016, 7:35:24 PM; updated October 3, 2016, 10:22:22 PM}

It's been over two years since I last posted a journal on here, and I still haven't really grown up since then. This past year has been quite an emotional roller coaster, all from relationship stuff. Thankfully my mom and my closest friends have kept me sane. I still haven't gotten a job or learned to drive, wasting time; time is money, and so on. I've put too much time into gaming and watching shows instead of working on my productive hobbies. I only have like two near-completed pieces that I never submitted, and not even that many WIPs.  This is probably why I don't write journals, because I just talk about how worthless I've been. Haha.

I'm only about to start doing something that might actually get me somewhere ... and it's spending more money on classes. One of my friends found out for me that the local community college here has courses in Game Design, Game Art, and Animation. I registered for a couple classes in the Game Art program, but I want to take Animation classes too, so I'll probably try to talk with an advisor to try to work out what will be best for me. Doing characters for video games is kind of my dream work, which would be helped more by Animation classes ... though those aren't video-game-centric. And I'm not as interested in, like, the part of Game Art that's just creating wall textures ...

Anyway, the point is that I'll be trying to focus more on art and like actually really get into doing deliberate practice to improve. I'm sick of my art quality having been pretty much static over the past six years.

So! If you reply here or note me with character references and maybe a general idea on what you'd like in any drawings, I'll try to draw some stuff for you. I'll still just be focusing on human anatomy, so expect any feral characters to be drawn anthro. I'll try to do at least one request a week.

UPDATE: So that summer semester didn't go very well, but this spring is going better. I got a new microphone, and I plan to start streaming soon. I have quite a list of drawings to do, so I'm gonna close off requests here. While I do these and other gifts I have in mind, I'll be timing myself to see if maybe I can offer commissions at a reasonable price. Like I don't want to charge much, 'cause I know the quality won't be great, but if it takes me too long, then it's not worth my time. I dunno. We'll see how it goes. So yeah, not accepting anymore requests for now. Sorry about that.

Request Queue! (currently closed)
1. IkodoMoonstrife's fursona firing a bow
2. Inkshadow's character Torshan
3. Deryn-Huskyboi's fursona as an anthro

Not a particularly good one. Unpleasant school and family things. Don't need to go into details.

One more semester of Uni before graduation, so that'll be nice. Then maybe real life will finally start.

May try spending less time online to focus on my work. That's what I should do.

write a journal on my birthday, but I decided I wouldn't bother this time.


wait


But I mean, really, there's like nothing to say.

And also as usual, I spent winter break watching shows rather than studying or doing anything creative. This time so far it's been 88 episodes of It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia and 76 episodes of Detective Conan. Oh, huh, I watched a lot of that last winter too...

If you're wondering how I'm doing, send a message on AIM or Skype or something? That would be nice. Oh, huh, I said that last year too...


Anyway, if I think of anything to say, I'll edit that in here. Yeah. Uh. Oh, huh, I kind of sai


I have not grown up at all.

How are you today? Good? Alright.

Yes, I am still here, but no, I still have nothing I want to submit.

Yes, I still read all your journals and look at your pretty drawings and even read your responses to anything I put up, but no, I still don't comment on or respond to them.

Yes, I did get an A in eight out of the ten classes I took last year, but no, I hardly did anything creative.

The two classes I didn't get an A in? Both were Japanese. I'm surprised I scraped by with a C semester, and I won't be continuing this coming semester. The class didn't motivate me to learn the language, even though I know I want to. But I hardly have the attention span to drill myself enough to become proficient at all. So that's really the major disappointment with school right now.

If you want to keep up with me or anything like that at all, that can't really be done on the Web. I hardly post anywhere. Even with all the time I spend playing FFR and creating and critiquing stepfiles, I don't post on the forums there much. I don't post art or journals on here or FA or anywhere.

Gotta chat on instant messengers if you want to know how I'm doing, really. I always have my usernames up ... One thing that's extra-nice is always-open chat rooms with friends on Skype.


Nothing I could submit really would ever be worth this long, long drought in my gallery. Maybe that feeling is one thing that's stopping me. I hadn't actually thought about it like that before, but I think that has something to do with it. "It's been so long, submitting this one dumb sketch wouldn't be enough at all." Yeah, sounds about right.

Not making any promises.


In other news, here's how my winter break has been.

At the end of the semester when the Persona 4 animation starting airing, I thought I'd start playing through that game again when I got home. So I've been doing that. Already got another 100+ hours on it, currently in the middle of October. Christmas was Christmas and I can't say it was anything special. But that's cool. I've also been watching quite a bit of anime. Other than Persona 4, I've been watching more old Detective Conan (not quite to episode 100 yet), watched Mawaru Penguindrum, Baka and Test ... started a few others. I played a looottt of FFR in the last few weeks of school but stopped during winter break, because I couldn't score near as well on this older computer. Still chatting a lot with my friends and such ...

And that's really it for me right now. I'll be back later with some other stuff, but I'm going to bed now.

Maybe I'll talk about how my classes are going to go this coming semester?

Sophomore-level Math,  some more Linguistics, Technical Writing for English core. Yeah.

Noope.

So it's registration time. Went to an advisor last week and talked about stuff. Got signed up for classes. The advisor said I could try talking with an art advisor to weasel my way into art classes without being an art major or minor, buuutt .. nope.
Apparently any kind of "advisor approval" thing for art classes and such was a total lie. Talked with an art advisor yesterday, and she said you had to register for an art major to take the classes (but could just remove the major later), but, yeah. Also there are basic art classes, before you even get to figure drawing, that not even art majors can weasel their way out of. Can't show a portfolio to skip those.
Also the art stuff here is really competitive, apparently, so there isn't a drawing minor, because too many people wanted to do that.
So yeah. Don't know if I'll ever be getting more formal art learnings for a while now.
I feel like my ability's been stagnating for a while, aand it looks like that's not going to change. Ohh well.
Already got enough on my plate for college .. Two majors, two minors. Mathematics, Linguistics. Actuarial science and Japanese.

Narf.
That's all for right now I guess.

I do have a piece I'm working on right now, and I do nooot know when I'm going to finish it. I've been slowly working on shading this one character's clothes for a whiile now, hah. And yeah, still a ways to go. But it's going to get done and I will upload it and it will be good and I will get to working on other things.

And here's another sentence because I never feel like I say enough stuff.